That may be true. But I don't believe that special mean superior in anyway. Special could mean just about anything. It could mean that you favor something or someone over another, but it could also mean that something or someone has a sort of charm to them that could be endearing or repulsive.

Also if something was truly understandable we wouldn't have conflicts of interest, or complex discussions.

New week, a new entry. I think I'm gonna try writing once a week here, maybe more when things start to fade or become dull.

I've been doing some work to prepare for a trip to Alaska. I'm a pretty good photographer if I say so myself. I tend to take pictures of the sky with its ever shifting weather patterns and of anything I find interesting or beautiful. It's too bad I can't share photo's here as well, otherwise I would love to show the collection of pictures I gathered this month and the pictures I will be taking in the upcoming months.

Whenever I take a picture of the sky I tend to ask the same questions like, why is the weather never constant, why is it sunny now when it was raining a few minutes ago, why do the clouds look like they were painted on a back drop of blue and who painted them. These questions also tend to follow when I take a picture of something beautiful. Silly questions that I know have scientific answers or make me over think the simplest of things but I can't help wondering if life was really meant to be so simple and understanding.

What do you guys think? I personally believe I am going crazy or already was crazy before I realized it myself.

I don't really know what I should write here. I guess I should just be open and honest whenever I decide to write a journal entry but since this is my first journal entry, I find myself not really willing to be as open about most things. I don't know much about the reality accident or the children's circle (outside of what I read so far) so I won't pretend like I do. I guess for now I'll just tell you a bit about myself since there is no reason not to and it's not like I'll have a lot of free time to do so while stuff is getting sorted out.

My name is Julissa (Pronounced: Jue-liss-ah). It's a mix of the names Julia and Melissa. I am a higher functioning autist (autism spectrum disorder), meaning my conversation skills fall into the more normal category, and my behavior when I am not conversing is within the more natural range making it almost impossible for other people to know I have a disability unless I state it as a fact.

I have a tendency to be distracted or look off into the distance, this tends to cause issues because I end up only hearing a partial amount of a conversation and make people uncomfortable by the sad, depressed look on my face when it happens. If such happens do not worry. I'm not sad or depressed, I just lost focus for a bit and I'm sure we can get the conversation back on track.

Onto something less interesting, likes and dislikes because everyone I have ever met has asked this question at least once. I like animated movies, all music besides classic, country, and screamo. I'm not very picky when it comes to food. I don't like peanut butter or apple sauce because of their texture. I have a small allergy to animal fur (all animals) but I don't mind taking allergy medications after being around and petting animals. I dislike it when people aren't honest but I can understand any reason for being untruthful (untruthful and unfaithful are too different things). My favorite color is purple though I also like blue, grey and dark colors. Physically I classify as female though I tend to be gender fluid when going out and making decisions (like what clothes to wear, and what movie to watch next). My pronouns are of the female variety but I am not bothered by being called 'dude', 'bro', and the like.

I think that's about it. a very talkative first journal mostly about myself but it's not like I'll get many questions about it anyway. If you do have any questions I have missed then you can ask me but I might be a bit busy so do understand if I don't respond immediately.