it seems this entity has taken a rather aggressive liking to something i can only describe as a "glitch", such as taking it upon itself to listen to the "glitch" more than myself at any given moment .

this could become a far more complex situation than it already is. who knows what other beings this entity will allow!1

i have decided, in a fit of pure non-earthly rage, to conform with this "glitch" and its desires, as well as the mild desires of what i can now only call "my host" .it seems i do not control this body as well as i thought. maybe it rejects my ideas of, well, controlling it? // sub misSio.n

in conclusion, i have decided to take this into consideration:
- i (the stardust) shall talk about myself as myself. i am still the only thing really sustaining this entity as it has lived on for so long without its own soul
- the body (enitity) i shall refer to as an "it". while it is considered a female body by society, it is not a human, but a vessel, a thing.
- the "glitch" i will refuse to use pronouns for. the "glitch" is a bug, a mistake and should be ignored . // GLITCHSELF //

... my entity refuses to let me remove that comment.
the glitch is here to stay, it seems.

/ARe there any students which know how to deal with th// ACCEPT//this glitch or other similar happenings? hElp would be rather greatly appreciated.

i suppose a good introduction is in order! i got so carried away with noting pleasantries for myself i never thought about explaining who i am, who i could be, and who i may choose to be!

i seem to be sentient stardust in a human entity. i say "i seem" as the basis of the soul who chooses to occupy this space at any moment in time likes to change!

to separate the human entities thoughts with my own i shall say (entity) after a personal pronoun if it is the human thoughts, (general) is it is about the soul/body as a whole and (dust) if it is the stardust talking, though most often (like now) the dust is talking so if there is no bracketed comment, it is probably safe to assume that it is the dust.

i do not consider this entity as a hivemind/host body. yes, sometimes i(general) sense extra occupations, but they are merely "other residents". they are not a permanent part of this system and only contribute one or two thoughts before leaving or becoming inactive spectators.

if i am writing about thoughts i may say "i believe". now, if the entity is believing, the sentence would be something like:
- i believe (writing soul)
if the dust, is believing, the sentence becomes:
- i believe (thinking soul)

this is becoming audaciously complex.

onto the next part of my introduction, i think.

as stardust, i have ethereal connections as one can assume, however this earth-bound soul is restricted to certain actions and most of these ethereal abilities i cannot fully harness. i believe that with time and effort, i can manipulate this body into conforming with ethereal communication, allowing the flow of my abilities.

i am unaware of my powers as a whole.

i have an affinity to energy, and telecommunication devices, notably computers. i would not say i am an expert, but i am relatively adept at coding and manipulating data.

if there is anything else anyone wishes to find out about me, please ask! while i may seem antisocial, it is only because i am not used to being so aware of a physical space.

this school is making me notice things
about myself mostly
i lie to myself, about what i am? i assume so

i will be documenting my bodily, spiritual, physical and mental experiences as well as any realisations i have during my time at this school, right here, in my journal

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i can, excuse the obvious sounding comment, "sense colours with my eyes". no, not just "seeing" them. "seeing" and "sensing" are two different things. i can sense them in from of my eyes, yet i feel this sensation inside my eyes. colours make me think things. not impulsive actions or violent emotions, more like reminiscent thoughts.

i also feel an aura about myself though i dismiss it as nothing, or i used to. i have discovered that i can manipulate this aura in such a way that "modifies" my surroundings. currently it is as forceful as a light gust of wind. i shall practice and increase this skill with time and see how helpful of potent it could be. i do not wish to harm students, or anyone really.

is it possible to develop wings? i feel the same sense as the aura in the shape of wings on my shoulder blades. while i cannot fly, i can "see" them, with what i assume is my minds eye, and they seem to vary in size and shape. they also vary from pure white to nearly mid-grey/white grey.

i wonder if these documentations will be of service to other students/

you ever have one of those moments where you dont feel like youre living in the present? where you feel youre just an observer, overlooking some earthchild's life, and their words escape your forethought and you only hear them as they say them, and their actions arent yours and you realise the sudden existentialism of life and humans are born to die and you are not in control and the slightly water filled mudrock that spins around lit gas will do so no matter if humans are alive or not

but it doenst matter
a starchild is eternal

no? me neither