Still Thinking About the Shadow
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marouane - 7/15/2025 12:59pmMy Shadow Didn't Move
Today, something happened that I can’t explain. It started as an ordinary morning. The sky was clear, the air felt normal, and I left my house like I do every day. As I stepped into the sunlight, I glanced down at the ground—something I rarely do—and noticed my shadow. But something was off. My body moved… my legs walked forward… but my shadow stayed still. Completely frozen.
I stopped. My eyes were locked on the ground. I raised my right hand. Nothing. My shadow didn’t respond. I turned around to see if something was blocking the light. Nothing. I blinked several times, thinking maybe I was dizzy or tired. But no… my shadow didn’t match my movements.
There was this strange feeling growing in my chest, a pressure, like the air around me had thickened. I looked around, trying to make sense of it. Nobody was near me. No tricks of the light. Just me. And a shadow that wasn’t mine… or at least, wasn’t acting like it.
After about 15 or 20 seconds—which felt like minutes—it suddenly caught up. My shadow jolted, twitched, then started mimicking me again, as if it had been buffering and suddenly reconnected. My heart was racing. I stood there, frozen, staring at the ground, waiting to see if it would happen again.
It didn’t. Everything returned to normal. People passed by. Birds chirped. But something inside me stayed on edge. I kept glancing down at my shadow throughout the day, afraid it might fall behind again.
What happened? Was it a glitch in reality? A message? A warning?
I don’t know. But I do know this: I won’t stop watching my shadow now.
Just in case it decides to move on its own again.
marouane - 7/15/2025 1:02pmIt’s been a full day since it happened, and yet, the memory hasn’t faded — not even slightly. In fact, the more time passes, the heavier it feels. I keep going back to that single moment, like a mental loop I can’t exit. That moment when I looked down and saw something I’ve seen my entire life — my shadow — behaving in a way it never should.
It didn’t follow. It didn’t react. It just… waited. Like it was separate from me. Like it had its own timeline, its own awareness, its own decision to make.
And for a few terrifying seconds, I was no longer sure if I was the original — or if the thing on the ground was watching me to see how it should behave.
I’ve read stories before about people who feel disconnected from their reflections. But this was worse. This wasn’t a mirror. This wasn’t a hallucination. This was my shadow — a silent, invisible part of me — choosing not to act.
It’s strange how something so small can unravel your whole sense of self. I tried rationalizing it. Maybe my mind misfired, maybe I was distracted or sleep-deprived. Maybe the sunlight played tricks on my perception.
But then again… shadows don’t pause. They don’t hesitate. They don’t wait for your next move like they’re thinking.
That’s the part that keeps echoing in my head:
It felt like it was thinking.
Since then, I’ve noticed myself moving differently. Slower. Cautious. I glance down more often, not because I want to see it — but because I need to. I need to confirm it’s still there. Still following. Still bound to the laws I thought were unbreakable.
And yet, part of me knows that whatever happened wasn’t random.
It didn’t feel like an accident.
It felt… intentional.
What if it was a test? What if something — someone — was watching me through it? What if the rules are only pretending to work, and once in a while, they fail just enough to make you question everything?
I wonder now if anyone else has experienced something like this. Something so subtle it escapes logic, but so powerful it shakes the foundation of what you trust about the world.
It’s not something you can prove. Not something you can show someone. Just a private horror that follows you — literally — every time you step into the light.
The worst part is: no one would believe me.
And the second worst part is: I’m not even sure I believe myself anymore.
But one thing I know for certain…
Next time it happens — if it does happen again — I won’t run. I’ll stand there. I’ll stare into the shadow.
And I’ll wait to see if it stares back.
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