gavcrowleys

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4/7/2018 11:22pm

psyhigh is crazy. are doll flu's really the norm for you guys? wack. i really need to get to know gav more. speaking of, no signs of him yet. but i did see an overabundance of Crow feathers. and y'all know how much ... loves his metaphors or w/e. won't quit looking for him tho. not yet

anyway i can't judge. better to live an interesting life than a boring average life like mine.

- ann-marie

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3/26/2018 2:10am

uhh,,,,, hi??? i'm ann-marie i guess? yall know gavcrowleys probs. considering this is his account so i mean. fjhjfjhdf let me cut to the chase; he's been missing for about a month and a half now. i walked into his dorm cuz he wasnt responding to my texts.

got kinda pissed cause im finally stopping the silent treatment and he doesn't respond lmao so i walked my dumb ass on over to an empty room and an open laptop with this website on it. i know the whole routine so you don't gotta add me to a public enemy list or whatever you psychics do. aaaanywaaaaayyyy

at first i just wanted to snoop lol. can you blame me? i admit me blaming him for the death of my family was childish but justified at the time. i was in a very vulnerable state and just couldn't get my mind straight and nothing weird started until i gave him the info on the ellipsis guy. i'm over it now.

but i saw he went to meet this "abe" guy in his last post??? maybe they're just kickin it hanging out somewhere? idfk but i ain't quitting my search 'til we find my partner in crime

also ellipsis calling me mourning dove pisses me off. fuck you asshole. die mad

- ann-marie

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2/20/2018 7:19pm

I got a letter in the mail exactly 3 weeks ago.

"Dear [██████],

How are you my old friend? Doing well in school, I hope.
Hope you ended up taking my advice and getting away from you-know-who. Haha, sorry, sorry. Couldn't resist bringing it up, but anyways, you know I am still embarking my journey of self discovery but I write to you bearing some great news! I'm coming home in only a few days. Man, It's been what - 3 years? Do you even remember me? Ha, God It's gonna be great seeing you again. I'll have to seek out your school so we can meet up.

I hope to find you in good health,
your friend Abe."

I have no idea who 'Abe' is. I would assume the letter's been sent to the wrong address if he hadn't used my real name. Apparently, this guy hasn't seen me in 3 years, and he knows exactly what PsyHigh is from the looks of it.

Nobody's been contacting me. No signs of Ann-Marie. No signs of Ellipsis. I'm kind of freaking out.

I'm gonna meet him, I think. I know; you're thinking that's stupid. And you'd be right, but I just need to talk to someone. This guy seems nice enough..


...Maybe I am losing my memory? This.. "you-know-who" who he apparently wanted me to get away from, I don't know who he could be talking about.

It's funny, I can't really even remember how I got to this school in the first place.

Forever yours,
"Gav" Crowleys.

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1/18/2018 5:33pm

Hey, sorry for the significant lack of posts on my end, I've been really sick with the Flu.

...And just generally anxious, honestly. I haven't been able to focus on schoolwork at all. This is the longest nothing weird happened to me and I've got a bad feeling. Real bad.

I don't know.

Sorry this is so short but, I just don't know.

Wish me luck,
"Gav" Crowleys <3.

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1/2/2018 10:39pm

Has anyone ever wondered where all these missing students go? Maybe it's some unspoken rule that we musn't ever bring it up, but it's been eating at me. I guess.. I do have a little bit of fear that I might be the next one.

Yes, Ellipsis has been quiet lately, but that doesn't mean anything. He went months without doing anything to me before. I know I don't say this calmly a lot but; I'm really scared. Ha, it's probably a little weird to hear me say that without panicking or blaming you for... whatever delusion I'm having. So yeah, I'm scared.

But I'm not gonna stop fighting. Not until we win. Not until I stop him.

Thank you again Psyhigh crew for making me student of the month! I'll be sure to make you proud, and what a great photo too! Seriously considering hanging that on my wall.

This journal is all over the place, but I can't help but ponder my future. It's funny how people are so obsessed with either their past or their futures but I really understand how they can't help it nowadays. I'm only a sophomore, so I guess I really shouldn't be... so scared.

I'm scared for a lot of reasons, actually. My situation, my future, my past, where I came from, where I'll go.. Everything. Uh, Sorry, I know this is for my therapist. I'll stop while I'm ahead.

Believe in yourself,
"Gav" Crowleys.

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12/24/2017 10:58pm

Merry Christmas and happy holidays to you all!

Sorry for the rare posts, but.. you know how it is, haha. I'm feeling better, though. Haven't lost me yet.

Forever yours,
"Gav" Crowleys.

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12/9/2017 9:52pm

What could these things mean? These.. Recurring themes in my life.

Birds,
Rebirth,
Reincarnation,
Purity,
Corruption,

I can't connect these dots. The lines are too blurred. Maybe I really shouldn't care, stop having this whole thing involve me; take a step back into reality among the rest of you. But, I feel I'm in too deep with no chance of

Ann-Marie won't talk to me. Says "It's for the best, I have my family to care about.". She insisted it wasn't personal. No matter what she says, I don't think it'll hurt any less. I know It's my fault, it was reckless of me to get involved with other people. I just need to isolate myself from now on. That way, nobody else will get hurt. I can't take this guilt.
I should tell my therapist but I know he'll think I'm sick, lock me away with the several hundred other underground human experiments and psychic-ability torture disguised as humane testing. They treat you like animals there, I've heard enough about it to know.

I haven't slept in over 5 days. I used to not ever be able to keep my eyes open. I've done a lot of changing this past year. I actually told my therapist some things about my... "fascination" with being avian. He wants me to visit someone to see if I have DID/MPD, or some form of BIID. Someone else said I'm "Otherkin", whatever that means. It's none of that, I... I don't know what I am...

I don't really think I was even a crow to begin with, that it was all a delusion of mine.

Maybe I should get put away somewhere. It's a lose/lose situation either way. And I deserve to be punished. If Ellipsis wants to kill me, he should do it. If Ann-Marie wants to kill me, she should do it. If "mockingbird" wants to kill me, they should do it.

Just do it already. i'm tired of doing this. i destroy everything and i'm all messed up in the head and i don't even know why or when i joined this school. i don't even know if this place is real and i barely know if i'm real anymore

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Immortal Hijinks
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12/3/2017 2:18pm

[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉

gav, have you ever imagined what it'd be like to be reborn? it is quite a beautiful idea. to die, but never truly disappear. how strange it must feel to have the same soul but to lose any previous qualities you once had.

you know, i'm fairly certain i was once a wild fox. i don't think it is a wild assumption to say you were probably once born a crow. how does it feel to become what you once were again, and then lose it? like you are missing a piece of yourself?

foxes in literature are normally conniving and evil. in your eyes, i must have kept those traits. to me, however, this is simply nature. i do what i must, or i will surely starve, if you get what i mean.

do not underestimate me again. you, mourning dove, and mocking bird are not my keepers. the only thing that will keep me at bay is death, and that is the one thing i cannot do.

in a sense, it is sad that i will never get to experience rebirth again. the fox i once was wasn't immortal, so why am i? the universe leaves questions unanswered. i've come to accept outliving everyone and everything until i'm simply left alone with the several other immortals around the world floating in space until we inevitably run out of nectar. until we "starve"

thanks for helping out @Rayla Tibbets, gavvy. you really are a friend. without you, i would have already starved. veronica is scared of me and ushers me out whenever i visit to get my fix, which i find hilariously ridiculous. rayla looks lovely too, as most immortals do. ((not to feed my own ego)) but don't get jealous. i ǫn̢l̡y̛ ̷h̴a͟v͞e eye̛s̡ fo̴r͝ ͢yo̷u.

that's all i have to say. tell mourning dove i send my condolences.

- ...Ellipsis... (ps. thanks for the nickname)

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12/2/2017 12:38am

[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉[҉]҉

Once, there was a fox and a crow.

The fox offered his friendship, and the crow accepted.
As soon as the other forest animals saw this, rumors were quickly spread.

"Foxes are wicked." Mouse said to Crow.

"Yes," Spoke Squirrel "He is tricking you into thinking you are friends and then he will betray you."
Crow dismissed the accusations. "No, I know Fox very well. You all just haven't given him a chance." Crow said, and flew away.

Deer and Cat watched as Fox and Crow played together and talked.

"What a sad sight" Cat sighed.

"Indeed." Agreed Deer. "Poor, ignorant Crow." Just then, Mourning Dove flew down beside them.
"You are all so mean. You don't know Fox, how can you assume he will betray Crow?" She tweeted angrily.

"Just you wait, as soon as Fox gets hungry the first thing he'll look at is Crow." Cat cleaned his paw. "He is a predator, while Crow is prey. Nature will not allow such a friendship."

"I am prey to you, and you have never tried to kill me." Mourning Dove reasoned. "How is Fox and Crow any different than you and I?"

"I am tame. I get all my food delivered to me in a dish. Fox is wild, and must hunt for his next meal." Cat snapped. "You will see. I guarantee the next animal who dies will be by the hands of Fox." And with that, Cat sauntered home, tail high with confidence.

The forest was awakened by the wails of Mourning Dove. Every forest animal had rushed over to her nest to see what had happened.

"What's wrong, Mourning Dove?" Crow asked sympathetically.

"My babies!" Mourning Dove sobbed and sputtered. "Fox has eaten them! He killed them!"

"See, Crow? Fox will never change. He will kill us all!" The forest animals panicked, rushing back to their burrows.

Crow returned to his tree and was greeted by Fox. Crow confronted him anxiously. "Why did you kill Mourning Dove's children?"

"I was hungry." Fox stated calmly. "If I did not do it, I would surely starve to death."

"The other animals were right all along. You truly cannot control yourself. You probably would have eaten me too!" Crow shouted at Fox.

"I ate Mourning Dove's chicks so I wouldn't have to resort to eating you, don't you see?" Fox attempted to reason with his panicked friend. "You are my dearest and closest friend. I would never eat you, so I must eat others."

"How can I be so sure? If you eat something as helpless as children all because of me, you might as well eat me just to spare them! You are sick, and I do not want to be your friend any longer." Crow cried.

Fox had enough, and pounced on Crow. "If you will all see me as a rabid monster no matter what I do," Fox shouted "Then that is what I shall be."

Tears pouring down Fox's face, his teeth sank into Crow's body and he began devouring his friend, granting his wish.

Fox spent the rest of his days starving himself to death, alone in his burrow.


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...i don't like this story

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11/28/2017 11:00am

Hello. Sorry I'm very inconsistent with my posting, but things.. haven't been good.

Well, I guess I'll just jump to the chase. Ann-Marie is currently in grieving, her mother and siblings were... well... "delivered" to her doorstep. in many pieces. very bloody scene, the police came and everything.

yesterday night, I got a slip of paper delivered to me with a fingernail and a little drawn heart. fucking crazy.

investigation in progress, but i doubt it'll go anywhere. i think we all know who did this. ann-marie said she'll be okay in time but she wants to keep her distance from me for obvious reasons. i think she blames me. i blame myself too. this went from a strange little thing to update on to full blown murder. i don't know what to do.

if ellispis, or anyone else working for him is reading this. please stop. you won
..... as i'm typing this i just got told i have a letter downstairs. going now.

"mourning dove"

*** RIP ***
| Kelly Rondwell |
| Jonathan Rondwell |
| August Rondwell |

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