So I found the Children of Clockwork Parents support group, and it's really great to find more kids in my situation. Sharing stories, comparing our experiences. A lot of kids are out there still undiagnosed, so creating more Clockwork Parents awareness is really important.
I can still remember "the moment" at dinner one night when I realized.
"How was school today, dear?"
"Fine. We shaved the hamsters and sent them to the governor. They're wanted for manslaughter."
"That's nice, dear. You know I hear the Henderson boy is making it to All-State this year..."
I stared at them while they droned on. I actually took off my shoes and climbed up on the dinner table. They didn't flinch.
After that, I realized how... defined... their world was. As long as I generally made the right inflections in whatever I said, or walked along certain paths, everything worked just fine. But from that moment on, I could move around outside their world too - and do whatever I wanted.
It's too late for our parents, but we've all "made the break." And it's great to find others like me.
Hello, @reddy james
While I am not a child of clockwork parents, it's nice to know someone of the community! I hope you are enjoying your time at Psyhigh, and make many new friends. I am always here for a shoulder to cry on (although I only have two, just fyi if you have many heads). Anyway, try not to get too lost at this great school!
It's super great to find understanding peers here at Psyhigh - like @Nicola Mac
. A lot of the anxiety we as Clockwork Kids have comes from worrying about "blending in," afraid that our "ticks" will show, since we've all lived part of our lives as clockwork. Always checking ourselves, making sure our gait is appropriately loose, that our head movements aren't too precise, the audible clicking that some of us make...
When you're in the Clockwork World, all those clockwork behaviors are what get you by - they are SURVIVAL. Getting on and off a bus is a synchronized mechanical dance to be mastered, and if you get slightly out of line then whack! you get an umbrella poke in the eye or a briefcase in your belly. It's just how the machine works.
But when you're outside of it - here, for instance, at Psychic High School - you see how ingrained those survival mechanisms are, and it takes a lot of psycho-cognitive OT to help your body and mind unlearn them.
So, again, it's really so nice to be here around people who understand us.