Azura Kynold

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5/26/2016 10:38am

What a day. I think. It seems a little too light to be nighttime. I don't remember having eaten, and nor does my stomach. I should eat.

I don't remember attending any classes today. I don't know if I did. I never do, really. I just get swept up with others and go where I feel like I should be.

It's a little strange, actually. I feel.. empty. I think something is missing. Maybe someone? It will come to me...
--BeanBean

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5/25/2016 11:16am

It is very difficult to See what happens in the Future, but I'm amazing at it. I just Remember it. My disjunct from time (yes, we've given up on being in line with time, the cons outweigh the pros) allows me to Remember things from any time. Sometimes the things I Remember haven't happened yet.

People keep asking me to watch the lottery more often and tell them the numbers.

I realised a while ago (we think) that there is someone else here, also. Whether they are a part of me or a part of my computer or simply typing in the space between me finishing my post and clicking the button to post it, I don't know. All I know is that when I read my old Journal posts, there are added bits that I did not write (yes we did) and that are sometimes confusing. I can't say I mind, though. Just one more odd thing to add to my school experience.
--BeanBean

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5/24/2016 2:10pm

Things are always as they seem. If you see everything as it is, that is.

Most people don't. I certainly don't.

I want to be able to see myself as I am. Sometimes I feel like others know more about me than I do (Get Her Out?) And it bothers me.
--BeanBean

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5/22/2016 1:18pm

I never see anyone else talking about the Exams. Have I stumbled upon the Unspoken Rule of Not Talking About It? Or maybe my Time is off again. Maybe the Exams are not Yet.

(The novelty of time is wearing off. We don't want it anymore.)

I do not know what to do.
--BeanBean

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5/21/2016 7:06am

Exams involve a lot of Writing. I expected to be Examined, stared at, Probed. Somehow, I am pleased that I was under little scrutiny (except by the eleven-eyed gods that were judging our progress) throughout these Exams.

They are not over Yet, of course. (Yet! we forgot that Time had words like these!) They will be Soon (Soon!! How wonderful) though, and then I will relinquish this link between myself and Time again. As useful as it is, it does not Suit me.

Besides, it feels... Forced.
--BeanBean

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Ghost Cat Whispering
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5/20/2016 12:55pm

Hello, welcome to the High School. It is nice to meet a new (new?) student here. I think that Ghost Cat Whispering is a brilliant trait, one to be encouraged.

For a little while I used to think I was a Ghost Cat Whisperer, but then I found out that they were actually Alive cats, and that I was an Idiot (The cats were very nice to us though) for thinking they were Dead.

Is there anything else that You can do?
--BeanBean

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5/20/2016 2:55am

Exams week is happening. Or is it? Depends on your relativity to time. And also what your schedule says.

Mine says it's now. I have a feeling I'm going to do terribly on the Mesmerisation exam and also the Clairvoyant Predictions exam (aren't they just stealing your sight of the future?) but I think I will do fairly well with Mental Conjuration, since I have always had a knack for imagination.

(We will likely do well in the Herbology. We have always had ways with plants)

I wonder what others are studying? And what they feel they will do well in.
--BeanBean

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5/19/2016 1:24pm

@patrick Thank you very much. The sudden feeling of Time is quite jarring.

It's weird to know that Time is not only Unreal, but Relative? It is a way of measuring... I never considered that before. Thank you.

(Reality is painful for us, we hope these Exams are over soon)

I am grateful for your help. I will be sure to make a Sacrifice to ensure your Safety at the next Blood Moon.
-BeanBean

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5/19/2016 12:56pm

....The Time has been.... Timey. Reality is springy, like a trampoline..... I feel uncomfortable. Reality is trying very hard to re-enter my life.

I (we) try so hard to regain thoughts of Reality and Time and Perception, so that I (we) can try to fit in, but when finally I (we) realised that maybe fitting in (Get Her Out?) might not be the way to go, Reality tries to break back into my (our) mind.

I wonder if it is thanks to the help from @patrick or if it is just for No Reason. I wonder if it is a good thing. It will help with exams, but what if it decides to Settle?

I have not experienced Time and Reality for a long while. Can someone teach me how to adjust? Thank you very much (thank you) to all.
--BeanBean

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5/18/2016 11:10am

@patrick Upon reading my journals I realised that I did say "we are sorry" but??? Do not remember writing this. Do not worry, I am thankful for your help.

Thank you (thank you) very much.
--BeanBean

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